"When the road gets dark and you can no longer see, let my love throw a spark, have a little faith in me..."
In this life, there is so much that can make us fall five steps back. Even when we feel complete. Things always come along that can shake what we believe in, how hard we've worked, and the amount of faith we have in things getting better. I call them trials and tribulations and in my opinion, they can make you or they can break you. But, when they are over and you are looking back in hindsight, one thing they always do is shape you. A lot of people have said to me, "I hate my past. " I have often agreed with that statement and knew exactly how they felt. But recently I have changed my outlook on that statement. I now know that I do not hate my past, in fact, I really love my past. If it wasn't for what I've been through and where I was I wouldn't know where I'm headed and how far I have come. I never have to go back there, I get the pleasure of looking back and knowing all my mistakes and insecurities and knowing that now, I'm a stronger better person. A past is something that we all should be grateful for because rather than being depressed and seeing how much road we have left, we can look back and see how many steps we have taken in the right direction, forward. Martin Luther King Jr. once said, "Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that..." and that is an amazing way to put it. When we've been through bad, why do we feel the need to react with even more sadness and madness? I'm so guilty of this at times, but it became clear to me that we are moving in the same direction that we have been, which is backwards. What if we changed the direction by reacting with happiness and having a little faith in things getting better? It is a hard thing to accomplish because when something bad happens, our minds are automatically trained to become sad or angry. When I think about this thought the first thing I think of is what my mother has always said the few times I have yelled at her, "I hate you!" She always answers back with, "I love you even more." She said my grandmother used to say that phrase when she yelled those words at her mother. As a mother now, I am absolutely going to carry on the tradition, but I think that is absolutely amazing. that she could take a time when she should react with sadness or rage and she doesn't, she reacts with pure love. Martin Luther King goes on and says, "Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that." This is an amazing quote because if you want to get rid of darkness, let a little light in. If hate is what is consuming you, how about killing it with a little bit of kindness? But, no matter what we go through we get the satisfaction of knowing that we aren't where we were and we can always change where we end up by changing the direction we're moving in. Either way though, we need to have faith that things can get better and that there are people all around us wanting us to keep moving forward. My greatest inspiration in having faith is my mother. We were in a horrible place and I've never seen someone build themselves up from the ground as well as her. She took the pieces of herself and reassembled them into a strong amazing woman, which she was all along, but she had to figure that out on her own. She is a true hero in the way she helps people, puts everyone before herself, and I'm so thankful to have such an amazing person in my life. We all must remember that with a little faith, things can get better. When one door closes, another opens and there is always light to let in even at our darkest days.
"There are two ways of spreading light; to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it."