Recently, my 8 year old daughter Megan and I were walking down our lane on a beautiful spring day after school.  Suddenly, my daughter started jumping up and down in excitement and rushed over to me to show me her amazing find of a genuine four-leaf clover!  We had been talking about how beautiful all the clover was, with several different varieties growing along the lane and in the surrounding fields.  And lo and behold, Megan found herself a genuine four-leaf clover, a universal omen of good luck!

Hi! I am Dawn and a year or so ago God laid it on my heart to start an online ministry to support, love and help people. My life has been a crazy ride. I don't have a sob story from birth but I have a rough story or parents dying young, wrong decisions and having to learn from my mistakes. When God laid it on my heart I worked a full time job and had a few businesses on the side. I love Beachbody products, IT works products, Jordan Essential products and have always wanted to 'help the world' with what I find helps me.

Why would they do that? How could they do that to me? Don't they know how I feel? I matter too, right?

 

 

Why would I let what they did bother me? They didn't do it to me, they did it, it was their choice. Why are you letting their choices disrupt your heart? Of course you matter, only look inside for your self-confidence.

 

In a recent conversation I was talking to an amazing young woman and she was so distraught about everything people were doing and saying about and to her.

I don't know if it is my Aunt's surgery, but I have been crazy emotional all morning. I keep getting thoughts going through my head that are flooding me with emotion. I never knew how completely I loved God until the moment I found my husband, I never had experienced anything as amazing as him, it was one of those where in the song, Amazing Grace where you feel the words, "I once was lost, but now I'm found." I found myself through finding him, and my home became him. When I was little there was nowhere like my Grandma's house, there was nowhere in the world that gave me the joy I felt being her Princess, but after their house was torn down and the land sold, I never thought I would feel that love again, that amazing feeling.

Well tomorrow is the day and my Aunt D is undergoing the surgery she has waited years for. Since she is going in at 5:15 a.m. I wanted to write a post just for her. First, I want to say to you, just as you have told me a million times before, you are a strong woman with amazing strength and if your not strong enough, if it is more than you can take, then realize that your God is holding you in his hands, and that his love will give you the strength to get through anything. As a child I grew up loving Bon Jovi mostly because all of my family loved his music, but also because my Aunt is madly in love with him, she always said the only person she would have married over my uncle was Jon Bon Jovi.

I was blessed in life with a wonderful mother. There was a time when I would do everything I could to put a smile on her face because she went through too much that she didn't deserve, a time when I was her shoulder to lean on, her daughter to talk to, and a time when I remember a mom that could never see what you saw in her, I saw an amazing strong woman all the days of my life. But, at times because of circumstances and hurt, she didn't agree with that. Today, my mother is a much happier stronger woman than she was, she is someone who decided to go back to school, a woman who decided to look for what she deserved, and a woman who knows that there are no boundaries of what she can accomplish for yourself because she can do anything.

Today has been a pretty hard day. This morning we ran short on money for our bills for reasons completely out of our control, I woke up at 4 am and have been up ever since after not getting to bed until 12, and lastly my housework has spiraled out of control having no time to clean. There have been a few times when I've looked around and felt nothing but hopelessness and sadness, what a waste. I have an amazing husband and two boys who need me, I don't have time to feel anything but happiness and most importantly no reason to feel hopelessness.

Well everyone, we made it through 2013 and have now started 2014, another year of blessings and hardships.  I'm not a person who feels highly of New Years resolutions, in fact I think they are something you make the first day of the year and forget all about as time progresses. So going into this year I will not make one, just as I never have because I feel that making yourself a better person is an everyday challenge to set. I turned 22 this year, and though this birthday didn't feel much different from all the rest, I do feel myself getting older and changing my outlook on a lot as time goes by.

Yesterday was a day where I let my anger get the best of me. I said things I shouldn't have, acted a way that doesn't show a person moving forward, and all I can do is think of now because tomorrow is already over. This morning when waking up, I wanted a better start to the day so to try and bring myself out of anger and frustration I of course turned to my music. When I let my anger gets the best of me, all I imagine is my Grandma in my head, in heaven, saying, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.

Tonight when putting Riley to bed this verse was the one to talk about in his Everyday Blessings. That is the book we read one page of every night before he goes to sleep, all I say is pick out one book and usually that book is the one he brings me. I know this book is supposed to be for your young children, but sometimes it amazes me how the words are perfect at the end of my day as well.